Heart Beats with a Trillion Flickering Stars

Upon the day the sun shone brightest, I looked upon the waters of the deep,
I thought perhaps I could gain knowledge of the life of these greatest seas
for I had been fond of such abysmal research before, watching the crowds
passing by or doing their daily chores, heads down, hands unable to hold
unable to give, unable to scold or to capture their dreaming desires bold.

Yet all I could ever see upon the surface of the sea were mirrors of me
fragments fallen to the bottom, souls of me swimming in that dark deep
with a frightening and most sinister gravity hiding down below pulling
my heart beneath to be and live there alone as alone as the earth is alone
she, a living cosmic symphony who muses with all planets, sun, and stars.

Could it be, I wondered, could it be that my drowning is a birth of me?
Could it be, I marveled, that I could dissolve into that heaven born sea?
I will dare the wandering as ocean flows and reaches the shore to leave,
as I, too, breathe wondering to where leads this strangest of journeys
the one where water’s rhythm heart beats with a trillion flickering stars

Game of the Labyrinth

You can never lose this uncanny game of life
for you play both opposing sides of the table:
the other is simply you; and you are the other
and so you cannot ever fail to be just yourself
any more than the sky can fail to be just sky;
but we are the beings who must ourselves seek
who we are inside this our physical labyrinth
of the good and the bad, the love and the fears
our hearts contain these myriad signs unclear
ever hidden in whom we believe that we are,
yet whom we cannot ever be neither near nor far
and that is the puzzle through we must learn
traversing the dark, towards Self we will turn.

To Be What is True

they wrote down yoga that you might remember,
not that you might know and teach the masses;

they didn’t care about scholars in white chairs
who in books allow their souls to be devoured

nor did they care about the acrobats of the fair,
who in mirrors allow their souls to become sour

no. wisdom is a memory of what’s brought to light
that the rest of us don’t forget our earthly plight

that you might remember to feel the brilliant sun
that you everywhere hear love of two that’s sung

rainy days give soft rhythm for your soul to drink
to dream what your parents never allowed you to think

I write this down that you might also remember you
to feel what cannot be written, to be what true.

A Billion Drops of Moonlight

a billion drops of moonlight shimmer in this dark night
falling as the rain falls, longing for their sun light
but it is earth that they find so densely wet and cold
going inside they melt into strange and foreign forms
grass tussling in the midnight breeze, leaves rustling;
they scatter hither and thither as lovers torn asunder
but in the midst of these I hear Moon’s soft whispering
soul-song with Sun to bridge their separated symphonies
hoping they’ll find each other in tomorrow’s waxing day

Treasure Hunt

1. When we cannot inspire ourselves, we look to a group of people to provide that inspiration for us.

2. The “collective” in anything is simply just strength in numbers. So many have lost their way in the collective.

3. When you begin to get to know yourself, you begin to learn how to love yourself and you begin to realize what a magical adventure you are.

4. The truth is that humanity cannot handle its own truth, so it mostly pretends to be simple.

5. Group-think or hive mind is a necessary survival mechanism designed to keep everything appearing small and insignificant.

6. We have two choices: to live in order to survive or to live. Most choose survival.

7. You will not actually find yourself in a belief system, a religion, a career, or a talent. Nor will anyone be able to help you find yourself. There is no amount of money you can pay to access the privilege that is you. No, you must learn to look in the mirror. That is all. And look deeply and with profound love and forgiveness, like you would your own child.

8. If all of humanity woke up, the game of earth would cease. That is not a desirable outcome because most have not yet discovered self-love. Self love is a prerequisite for true human freedom. Until then, we remain safely in our own mental imprisonment.

9. Only a few must be awakened, for they are the creators and the artists of their generations. They must live in the source of art, not in the deceit of it. If they choose to live in the deceit, they will remain imitators instead of creators, slaves forever.

10. Music is a vibration that is loved by the vibration that it matches. But the real art and power of music is in its ability to transform the vibration of the body, the emotional body, the energetic body, the subtle astral body: all bodies. Music is life.

11. Music is the essence of who we are. It can lock us within a tomb or it can raise us above the skies.

12. Everyday speech is an extremely weak method for true communication, its faith in itself conceals its own mediocrity.

13. Most people spend their lives in mindless chatter and nonsense. This is the root cause of their anxiety and depression. Confusion is a kind of noise. It is music that makes no sense at all. It is the true meaning of torture. Make no mistake. The modern mind is a torture chamber in the highest degree.

14. This modern world is designed from top to bottom to be a giant distraction from who we are. It is a combination of Dante’s hell and Chinese water torture and endless repeats of Happy Days. We are both addicted to and allergic to this distraction. If there is one word that could describe the modern world it would be misery.

15. Computers have not improved communication. They have limited it, confined it to empty echoes in the wires and the ether.

16. Because people have lost the art of communication, they have become fearful of what other might say about them.

17. The modern world wants the individual to care about what the modern world thinks of him or her.

18. Most people follow a religion for the sake of survival, not illumination or love. This is why religious zealotry is so common: their greatest fear is that they are wrong about what happens after death.

19. The English word religion is derived from the Latin religio which means to bind or to yoke together. Compare to the Sanskrit, yoga, which also means union, specifically union of the lower self with the higher self or the divine.

20. The Western religions are presented in half-truths simply because their relationship with eastern religions has been deliberately severed from view. The roots of this tree are many, but one still grows in full view, albeit ignored by the generic Jewish population, namely Mystical Kabbalah or Qabalah as the western occultists like to call it. Either way, Jewish mysticism has a deep connection to early Christian mysticism, as well as a connection to early pagan mystery cults. Such things have been scrubbed from modern churches and synagogues.

21. The glue that keeps modern society together is equal to the energy exerted by its component parts. The component parts are you and me and everyone else who participates in this game. The glue is your soul energy. And make no mistake – it is a sacrifice. The true deal with the devil has already been done.

22. The devil in the red suit with horns belongs in children’s stories. Jesus never spent time with such a one. The devil he spent time with and successfully resisted with is the one you have already welcomed into your home, your heart, your bed.

23. In the Greek New Testament, the word for repentance is metanoia. It means to overcome the mind and set attention to something beyond it (towards the divine). How do you elevate your mind? You learn to focus its attention on something else. But first you must learn how to not to drown inthe choppy waters of the mental space. chitta vritti nirodha: “a cessation of the waves of the mind-stuff.” – Yoga Sutras 1:2.

24. We all have psychic powers and gifts. But they cannot be unveiled unless we calm the chatter of the mind. The world is designed to hide our gifts. Are you ready for a treasure hunt?

25. Love is difficult when we only perceive it in terms of possession and loss. Once we begin to elevate our consciousness we enter the sea of eternal love where beloved and lover are already experienced as one. This is the bliss of ultimate awareness, ultimate ecstasy.

26. If you understand the New Testament, you understand the Yoga Sutras. The miracles of Jesus are the miracles of Self.

27. There are no miracles in the world. There are only powers and energy.

28. We believe in miracles only due to our limited perception of what reality is. Nothing more. Nothing less. There are spirits and energies of other dimensions all around you. How do I know? I see them. How can I see them? I have done the work and am still doing the work.

29. We are in such a sorry state of consciousness that many find it hard to believe that the spirits of our ancestors spend much time with us.

30. The general public is in a trance like state, which means you are in in a trance like state. Be wary of those who believe they are fully awake. These are the ones who are mostly asleep.

31. What are we entranced by? Music/Television/Movies/Politics and then we becomes entranced by their imitations in the form of family, friends, co-workers. We all choose our role. We all choose our costumes. The children who have not yet chosen are the only light we have. The animals are the only truth we cling to. Many give up if they hear these words and they blame society. They need to quiet themselves and look in the mirror and walk through it. That is the only true salvation. In mirrors, we can learn how to walk on water.

32.You will never have a firm foundation for dreams if you cling to the ones that no longer work or serve you. Dare to be a fool. Dare to take a leap of faith.

33. Listen to your heart. You are loved and you are guided. You are a beautiful light that does not lie, cheat, or steal. You deserve the world for there is a universe within you, behind the shroud.

Ego, Dharma, Healing


Nothing is higher than dharma. The weak overcomes the stronger by dharma, as over a king. Truly that dharma is the Truth (Satya); Therefore, when a man speaks the Truth, they say, “He speaks the Dharma”; and if he speaks Dharma, they say, “He speaks the Truth!” For both are one.
Brihadaranyaka Upanishad, 1.4.xiv

Agreement. Our dependency on other people is not due to our own weakness, but is due to the superficial preoccupations of our mind. When not at “work”, our mind spends most of its time with trivialities, falsities, and circular repetitious inner dialogues. The truth is that we are rarely dealing with the real world, if such a thing exists; and even if it does exist, we have very little inclination to associate with it, let alone the patience to inquire about it. Everyone else does this as well, and their agreement with us appears to constitute “reality”. We choose, for better or for worse, to engage with people who support the illusion and confusion we conjure on a regular basis. Shared delusion, mass consciousness, birds of a feather; call it what you like. As Friedrich Nietzsche said, “In individuals, madness is rare. In groups, it is the rule.”

Bondage and attachment. We are more attached to our thoughts about love than actually loving. It is a situation that is truly the “devil’s handiwork”.

Success. We generally never question what constitutes society’s idea of success. If we did, the idea would have already transformed, and so would we. And if success doesn’t fulfill us, we pretend that it does until the lie becomes so great that the only friend we have is what the Greeks called pharmaka: spells, incantations, and herbs. We recognize these as pharmaceuticals. Some are satisfied with simply “partying”.

Poison. Poison is not in the air or the sea, the earth or the fire. The poison is always in what we believe, and what we believe we must be.

Reality. People speak confidently to each other and themselves about being “realistic”. But “realism” only makes sense within the context of a hive mind and the limits it sets for itself. These limits are what divide good from bad, right from wrong, possible and impossible, all of which apply to everyone and no one in particular.

Thinking and Inner Knowing. We think that thinking leads to observation and that observation leads to truth. But this is a lie. There is no true and good observation with the mind. The mind is not an instrument for the observation of truth. The soundness of an argument does not mean it is a true argument. You can create a damn good story, but it has no bearing on its validity. A program for a computer can be logically sound and perfectly written. There is nothing “true” about it. It is a created system designed to stand by itself in a certain context. Mind as a whole is an instrument for collection, categorization, organization, structuring, story telling, argumentation, etc. The mind’s utility comes in after the observation/inspiration has already taken place. With what organ do we observe reality? Some cultures call it the “third eye” or the “heart chakra”, or the “understanding”. It is the source of all original inspiration and creativity. Plato called it “remembering”, because he saw inner knowledge as something that is already there within us latent and hidden. We are born with what we are meant to create; all we have to do is simply recollect and work on manifesting it. Yet most of us do not believe in any of this because not only have we been uneducated in the awareness of ourselves, but even when we do become aware, we decide that such an inner search takes time and solitude. And time and solitude will not make interesting YouTube videos or Facebook posts. Time and solitude will not get you quick success.

Quickly. Fine wines are not produced in a day.

From Spirit to Cog. Even though we are not aware of the full powers of our third eye, we still receive information from within and through it. The third eye is literally a portal to other worlds, and aspects or timelines of this world. However, this information is distorted and muddied by the ego-material world we live in. We immediately transmute spiritual information into childish dream analysis, ideas for action, ideas for winning. The American culture is still very pragmatic with regards to its own success. The individuals within it are simply expressions and pawns of that pragmatism. Spiritual insight is always shortly followed by “How can I sell this?”. And if we can’t sell it for the sake of wealth, fame, or image, we discard it immediately.

Heaven for Hell.
American culture’s relationship to yoga and meditation can be defined in the following way: We stretch our muscles towards the heavens so that we might relax happy inside our hell.

Group Meditation.
The only access to true reality is through our own experience of spirit. Meditation helps. Group meditation, however, is like to going to a sociologist for psychotherapy.

Disease and Profits. There is no money to be gained if people don’t need someone else to do something for them. There is always an financial incentive to keeping physical and spiritual disease alive and thriving.

Self-Doubt. Self doubt is the ego’s most clever survival strategy. Self-doubt is one of the most difficult psychological barriers to happiness and, at the same time, it is the best way to protect our current status-quo, whatever that may be. Self-doubt is most difficult, not because it is inherently complicated to remove as if it were some sophisticated alien implant, but because the strength of self-doubt is proportional to the power of the ego, which in most of us is unbounded and untamed. Self-doubt never doubts the doubter, because that would remove the entire disease and send the person into a reflective hall of mirrors. It’s just too much twisty mental yoga for most people to even look at it. No, self-doubt keeps us from being or doing or saying something outside of our normal routine. It is simply a ego-defense mechanism and it is designed to make you fail at your heart’s desire. Every. Single. Time. Self-doubt usually arises due to an overprotective parent. They would rather you stay in the house all day, than risk skinning a knee.

Imbalance always stems from an unbridled ego. Excessive muscle mass, excessive exercising, excessive partying, drinking. The power of the ego is always in inverse proportion to the power of the soul. Can’t control yourself when faced with a bag of chocolate? This is not about lack of will power; it is about the lack of relationship to your own soul. Look at it this way. Would you continually feed your dog or your child a bag of chocolate in every day? Not unless you want to kill the former, and cause serious health problems in the later. Why would you do it to yourself? It is not because you lack will power. It is because you are not connecting to love and care towards yourself.

Love is Health. With love, intelligence, care, grace, and kindness comes naturally. How do you access love? You begin by being true to yourself, to your powers, to your inner knowing. Spend time alone. Let everything else that falls away from that, fall away. You don’t need it.

Google as Oracle. We moderns believe that we know more of reality than the ancients. It is true that we may know more about the natural phenomena as presented through the five senses. We have spent a lot of time with data and pattern observation in observable phenomena. We worship our material world in a way that the Egyptians would find shocking. We even have computers that we love more than life itself, to do our heavy mathematical calculations, logical sentences, and Google oracle searches. But this deep faith in physical scientific data has spread to all areas of human life and the result is that we have never been more ignorant about the nature of ourselves or the universe. This is why the ancients look ignorant to us, not because they were ignorant, but because they were usually talking about something that we have long forgotten, namely, ourselves.

Misunderstandings. Our standard modern egoic understanding of religion and gods completely prevents us from understanding anything true about religion and gods.

Socrates: I know nothing.
Delphic Oracle: Know yourself!
Socrates: I know that I know nothing.

Resist, Surrender, Resent. To resist against social norms is to persist those social norms. This is why most young people eventually give up their resistance and surrender to what they once claimed to despise. At that later point, they see themselves as “growing up”. But the truth is that they have just “grown in”. They are as wild horses who finally succumb to the comforts offered by their masters. Later, as they age, these people are most likely to become the ones who are the least tolerant of those who don’t in turn succumb to what they themselves once submitted to.

Monkey Mind. Most people give up on meditation because they have a “monkey mind”, a mind that is completely unable to stop swinging from thought to thought, from dream to dream, from desire to desire. Restlessness, anxiety, inconsistency: all of them feel impossible to avoid. But this is precisely why they shouldn’t give up on meditation. Yet for some reason, the monkey thinks that if it is hungry, it shouldn’t bother eating.

Separation. The energy of people speaks louder than their words and their actions. You can experience the thoughts of another individual even before they can articulate those thoughts to themselves. This is no magic. This is possible only because we are not really separated from each other. Psychic powers arise out of awareness of connection with others from within.

Karmic Disease. If you cause pain to another human being, you will feel that pain as well. It will become part of you. This is what karma is. It is not justice. It is the experience of shared energy. You cannot intentionally harm or hurt someone else without harming and hurting yourself. It may manifest differently within you and you might not identify it until later, but it is there. This is how generational karma is possible. The pain is transferred. You are always the one who has the opportunity to heal it. Otherwise, you will remain a carrier and you will spread that pain far and wide to as many children and animals as possible. Karma is a disease and each one of us can resolve it. First by recognizing it, healing the wounds, and healing others.

Generational Suffering. One person can contain the evil and pain of multiple generations. I have seen such a one or two and I have seen deep suffering and alcohol in their eyes.

Victims. The modern victim mentality perpetuates karmic disease. When everyone is the victim, no one takes action to resolve the karma. We don’t take responsibility because we are the root cause of the pain, we take responsibility because we can be the cause of the healing. It is our Dharma to do so. To neglect that duty is to actually become part of the root cause.

Healing. The source of all confusion and muddied thinking and feeling is a lack of access to Source or God (whatever you call it) via your third eye. You are one and your being is integrated inside the world in a profound and magical way. The confusion you suffer is not due to psychological illness, but due to sociological conditioning and false education. Peel off the layers of social conditioning and you will uncover your true voice. This takes time, love, and patience. Do not give up in this. Be relentless. Find others who support you. Find good books, not self-help agendas and yoga teacher trainings. Stop chasing “success” and “money”. It is candy but it will leave you unfulfilled. Then when you are done and have found who you are, or at least who you are not, begin to learn how you might heal all the others. You will know when it is time. Only you will know. Google knows nothing.