Cups (Netzach)

It is a wholesome reminder of the fatal ease with which a Sacrament may be profaned and prostituted.

– Aleister Crowley, The Book of Thoth
Rider Waite, Seven of Cups
Rider Waite, Seven of Cups
Thoth Tarot, Seven of Cups, Debauch
Thoth Tarot, Seven of Cups, Debauch

when the rain falls they long to capture it all
buckets and cups they place quite strategically
not to drink but to preserve their passing desires
hoping to entomb the life that blooms and expires

for if they drink, the water will return to the earth
for if they drink not, the water will return to the air
What wave have you seen within their shallow wells?
In what cups has the moon conjured her wild swells?

so they fill themselves with their glory and their fame,
money, lusts, devil’s serpents, manors, bonding chains,
cups that fill without needing random cloud’s releasing
distant, dark, sadly detached from nature’s river streaming

Tarot: The Black of Hole of Seeking Public Attention and Approval 6969

I was moved to do a tarot reading today because I have been feeling an immense shifting of energy – a certain powerful calming influence, a feeling of freedom and fresh air, of being unattached to any outcomes one way another, an absence of fear. As I am a channeler and I generally work with Archangel Uriel, I pick up collective energies as well as my own. I receive information and wisdom regarding these these energies, as well as lessons that hopefully reach the one they are meant for. Archangel Uriel is especially fond of turning things upside down on their head, and this is necessary when the hourglass has finished letting the sand fall to one extreme or the other.

Extremity is simply holding on to too much, digging one’s claws too deep, to one side of the duality or other. We don’t want the hourglass to be turned upside down. We want to stay where we are even though we are in an imbalance and choking on sand. Today, Uriel showed me the consequences of spending too much of our time seeking public attention and exposure at the cost of being authentic and true to our soul and its journey. The soul’s journey is a journey that seeks balance within. It is the master hand that controls the hourglass but does not itself reside within it. But where many of us are is not in a journey or in our power as much as an attempt to hide or to escape from taking that journey, from owning that power.

When we choose to please others and live our lives or create our projects based primarily on the approval of others, we are not living an authentic life. It is not as if we have consulted our soul and its direction, for the soul is what connects us to the divine and where we discover our own connection to the universe. Instead, we have been seeking the approval and advice and direction of other people. By both their words and their actions we are tugged and pulled along in life. The consequences of this behavior is truly catastrophic, as it both leads to and causes depression and self loathing, anger, resentment, envy, and internal/external conflict (anxiety).

We are meant to shine, not to be someone else’s mules.

And the longer we do not listen to our soul, the deeper the pain will be felt. We can choose to continue to medicate ourselves by chasing more approval or perhaps by some divine intervention choose to instead stop and begin to heal and face what we have been running from. For what we have been running from is our soul and the purpose of our soul. It doesn’t matter the reasons. Perhaps people tell you are worthless. Perhaps your parents told you were a waste of time. Maybe a past life experience has never let go. Whatever the reason, you can still choose to start again by stopping. Stop chasing. Stop looking. You are already here and ready.

For this reading I was guided to use the Quantum Tarot Version 2.0 by Lo Scarabeo. I love this deck, as it gives me a new way to consider the energies that are normally expressed in only anthropomorphic images. There is so much to learn in physical science that can help us to understand our spiritual journeys. I am of the belief that a stronger alliance between science and spirituality will strengthen the power of both. For those interested in the numerological significance, the cards read: 6969. 6969 is an angelic number sequence that indicates to us that it is time to let go of material attachments. Can’t make this stuff up.

The first two cards are the Black Hole reversed (traditionally The Devil) and Star Birth (9 of Cups). The Black Hole is something that consumes light and never releases it. The closer an object gets to it, the slower time appears until it stops altogether. Life becomes difficult and hard to get through or it just becomes mundane and boring. We become sluggish and feel a lack of vigor, giving ourselves the excuse that perhaps we have become too old or too weary to do much more. We all know that stuck feeling, that feeling that we have made certain choices and agreements or contracts and that we just cannot release ourselves from them. It doesn’t matter at this point that we are unhappy or even miserable, we just tend to learn to accept things and make the best of what we have. We will often pray or dream of someone to save us. We will wish something will happen outside of us that will turn it around. But what we are doing is we are just allowing the black hole to suck us in further and keep us there in our fixed automated ways of being. If we have addictions we feel even more attached and sucked into the darkness. Our own power to resist almost feels non-existent. We are telling the universe again and again that we are powerless. And the universe is responding in kind.

The good news is that in this reading, the Black Hole card is reversed, which means that there has been a release from some of these attachments. What was once stuck is becoming unstuck. There is an energy of power present. It could be the release of a toxic relationship or occupation, or perhaps a change in mindset or attitude, or maybe the healing of an addiction or obsession. Whatever it is, this card is also accompanied by Star Birth which is a beautiful card indicating that there is an energy of renewal and abundance – a rediscovery of one’s own personal power and what it feels like to be released from those attitudes, things, people, or circumstances that only cause misery and feelings of powerlessness. And because the Black Hole is such a powerful card, I am getting that whoever this reading is for has done an enormous amount of work to get to this point of not only surviving by resisting the power of the black hole, but by thriving and stepping into their own power.The next two cards fell out of the deck together and so they are meant to be read together. Both of them clarify the nature of the attachment that is being overcome in the Black Hole reversed card. The attachment is the attachment to approval from others, fame, masks, other people’s expectations. The attachment is an attachment to your own powerlessness, your belief in being a victim of life, of mind, of society, of God.

The first card is the reversed Star (6 of Wands). The upright meaning of this card is about short-lived victories. Stars shine for billions of years after they are born. But in divine time or universal time, this is a short moment. Not all things last, especially human feelings of victory. Movie stars, music stars, film stars: all of them fade. And your attachment to your own form of fame and attention is no different. In the reversed position here, the card indicates an unhealthy dependency on the constant need for reinforcement and approval. A billion plastic trophies. In this world of social media for example, we can easily get addicted to gathering as much approval as possible from friends, family, and even strangers. Fame and mass approval used to be something reserved for the few, but now it is easily accessible by everyone. That is great, but when unchecked, the drive to get approval from others can actually be a detriment to your own growth. It is easy to do something you know many will approve of and purchase. It is also easy to please family and friends who want you to do things the way they think they should be done. It is easy for us to become king of the ants. But so many of us can be something more than just a king of ants. It is truly a heroic task to discover what your true purpose is on this earth and to manifest that purpose despite what others might think. It is easier to get likes from others than to truly learn to like ourselves without the need for approval. Do you still want to play so small?

The second card is called Matter\Antimatter Annihilation (9 of Swords). Amazing that this card dropped. This is a card of deep internal conflict, deep fear, anxiety and self-annihilation. Matter and antimatter annihilate each other when they collide together. No one survives. The neglect of self is the matter. The antimatter here is the attention paid to what is non-self. The self and the non-self cannot co-exist together. They annihilate each other. The person, the individual, the soul is a battlefield and it is the soul who must pay. And yet it is also the soul who cannot win. It truly is bloody. The pain of this is unbelievably excruciating and there are many who are experiencing this pain, not usually consciously either. Most people experience this pain in their physical bodies, particularly in the lower chakras, because they are literally in survival mode. Digestive issues, reproductive issues, all are affected here.

But regardless of this pain, this internal war starts to become home. It becomes a familiar way of being not only for ourselves, but for everyone else around us. This mode of being, this Black Hole, this battle and addiction to wanting to win and be a victor consumes the human energy field and neglects the attention and love that the self requires. The reason why we want to gain people’s approval is so that we can create an even bigger army to prove that we are worth something in the world. The weakness that we experience in the self, in our lack of personal power, in our inability to feel good without the approval of others leads to the desire to bond with others and as many as possible in order to create a feeling of being more powerful than we actually are. The lie that we cultivate and the hidden feelings of self loathing and impotency create a warlike atmosphere within our inner world. And the more impotent we feel, the more we feel the urge to gain acceptance from others. This is why many people who are famous have such difficulties. They were driven to fame due to a lack of self worth and their parents’ (who pushed them) lack of self worth. And the bigger the fame, the deeper the self-loathing. Millions of people are now wanting to become internet stars. Not all are driven by lack of self worth, but many are and they are entirely unaware of it, because the high they get from public approval is enormous and it conceals from view their own true self neglect and lack of integrity. There is nothing wrong with wanting public attention per se, but we must look at the motivation we have behind it. Are we being true to ourselves and gaining public attention, or are we changing ourselves with masks and other tricks in order to maintain our public persona and, at the same time, medicate ourselves? These are critical questions that only the heart can answer.

But the good news is that the energy I am feeling to day is that there has been an overcoming or a beginning of overcoming of this need for approval and that there is some majority out there who are coming into their own sense of power and expression of self. There has been a shift inward and a new attention towards self mastery, self power and self love. This is truly a battle against the devil’s energy in both the tarot and Biblical sense. I am not sure whose energy I am reading here today, but I feel it as well and it is inspiring for us all because it is nothing other than the expression of unconditional love and the desire to permanently put an end to the pain of that internal warfare that consumes so many of us on this earth both in body and in soul.

Love and Light to all,

Tarot: Masculine Awakening

This tarot reading is a channeling regarding the masculine twin flame collective. I have been getting information for quite some time regarding issues around matters of money, particularly in the area of financial/material obligations/relationships. Since this is a new blog, I did not upload that information or the readings that helped me articulate that information. Today I am getting messages indicating that the masculines are beginning to wake up about the nature of themselves and the lives they have been living in. However, although they are eager to take action, they are finding things to be more challenging than that. The solution to this challenge demands that they go their own way. The ways they used to solve issues in life will no longer work.

As always, I like to remind the reader that tarot is not a fortune telling device. It is a channeling device that is particularly useful to those who receive vast amounts of information that often seems contradictory or difficult to parse. Thoughts about how the cards are chosen and how they appear is an article for another day, as it is still a topic I am exploring. All I know is that the cards work for me as a tool to see deeper into information I have been receiving previously and during the time of the reading. They provide further confirmation and ground my channeling in a way that I can see it visually. I am quite new to this visualization, so bear with me as I do this. I hope to eventually create some YouTube videos and do my readings there. But for now, I am more comfortable writing, since I am first and foremost, a writer.

Masculine Energy

As always, when I speak of masculine/feminine energy or masculine/
feminine in general, I am not referring to physical sexual orientation. We all carry both energies. Only you know which energies predominate in your disposition. I also use he/she pronouns, but they always refer to the energies, not the sexual orientation.

Masculine energy is all about making things happen, making dreams into reality, making a life that provides and moves one in the direction of a goal, a plan, an aspiration. Healthy masculine energy is the energy of powerful manifestation. It is so powerful that even when masculine energy is stuck or blocked or hindered, it will still try to find a way out by working around those blockages and even with them. Blockages are normal everyday challenges that the masculine will face when working on his goals. These can be very healthy and even rewarding on his path. However, there are other kinds of blockages that are not natural obstacles set to challenge him, but are of another more nefarious kind that can do immense damage to the overall psyche of the individual.

Masculines who have suffered damage to their natural will and focus have difficulty in manifesting what they want to achieve. In those cases, life never seems to go their way, and he usually finds himself reluctantly hitchhiking his way through life, while knowing deep down he is really meant to be driving his own car. Resentment of others, society, and the world at large becomes an easy release for his frustration.

The entire foundation of modern politics thrives on this dysfunctional male energy. Each politician thrives on their voters hating and despising not only their opponent, but the way things are in the world. And that doesn’t mean that things are not wrong in the world. There are plenty of areas that are worthy of development. The problem is that the politicians want the masculine to believe that they are the solution, and that he is not. This is a lie, but I will save that for another article.

There is a lot I can say in regard to this situation, but the most important thing to note in regards to this reading is that when the collective masculine is disempowered in areas of life, masculines become overrun by a tsunami of fear that never seems to stop swallowing all or some areas of their life. Instead of manifesting the world they want to manifest, they remain in a world of their mental imagination ruled by ego. They may become overly protective and stagnated in certain areas and so imbalances and disease increase as they age. They generally resist change in their lives because they want to maintain as much control as possible – they are holding on for dear life. They are tired, overworked, and try to compensate for this by engaging in addictive behaviors such as excessive activities involving alcohol, partying, drugs, sex, etc. Healthier minded masculines will opt for obsessions around video games, body obsessions, diet/weight obsessions, political zealotry, and various other modalities. They also generally form co-dependent and unhealthy relationships or groups of people with similar obsessions who allow them to continue to justify their lifestyle and attitudes about the world.

Considering this state of the collective masculine in modern Western society, I find this tarot reading to be encouraging, as I will show you.

So let’s now look at the cards.

The Cards

The Ten of Cups is often considered good news when it appears on the tarot table. But in this instance it appears in the reverse, which indicates that all that glitters is not gold. The appearance of the reversed Devil card mirrors the reversed Ten of Cups in a remarkable way. Its presence indicates that happiness has not been ruined, but that it never really was happiness in the first place – it was actually set in place by means of unhealthy relationships, imbalanced obligations/contracts, and unfulfilling conditions that dominated the masculine’s life. These unhealthy relationships can involve money in general, finance, jobs, marriages, love relationships, friendships, and family/ancestral patterns of behavior. If you are more interested in exploring the power of these kinds of relationships/bindings, you can do some research on Morphic Field Energy or Morphic Resonance.

So what is sparking this break in the illusion? This is no “tower” or divine moment of intervention. This unraveling has been born by the determination of the The Knight of Swords who incidentally is facing, with sword in hand, the illusory bliss as pictured in the Ten of Cups. Swords reflect mental decisions and awareness. He is seeing the illusion through mental work – mind awareness. He and his horse are determined to do what has to be done, which is to reveal the truth about the Ten of Cups in this instance. The truth is reflected in the reversed devil card which indicates a revelation or overturning of what has been an unhealthy relationship with family, friends, or perhaps a financial agreement of some kind. The clarification card, the reversed Six of Pentacles, confirms to me the financial or material nature of these unhealthy relationships.

It is important to remember that the Knight of Swords reflects a take-no-prisoners cowboy attitude. This awareness of the illusion is just a mental awareness, but the Knight seems to think that he is on his way to victory. Unfortunately, victory isn’t quite that easy. Mental awareness of what has deceived us in our lives is not enough to find a good solution or alternative to the deceit. It is one thing to know your friends are not being entirely honest with you or that you haven’t been entirely honest with yourself, and another to figure out how to deal with that knowledge in a way that works out well and fair for all. The problem can go quite deep, as individuals in society are profoundly influenced by common templates, paradigms, and belief systems. The solution is usually not at an individual level – it requires a search for root cause of the problem. This is why we have the Queen of Wands looking away from the Knight. He has gone outside the boundaries of her interest which is to go deeper than mental awareness and remove the blockages that prevent action.

The Queen of Wands wants grounded, balanced energetic solutions. She sits in the center of this layout. The feminine is the center of all this motion. It is her connection to the masculine (Six of Cups) that has propelled him to access his intuition about his current situation, namely, that he has not been living inside of his truth, and has instead been living inside a reality that has not been in alignment with his nature. But the Knight was too hasty to act on this information. He wanted to translate the insight into an action item. As such, she is now looking upon him, not as a Knight, but as someone who was just trying to beat all the others at some game of mind (Five of Swords). He has taken the action, but many in his circle have either energetically or physically walked away from him. The masculine, in his rebellion against society, is left isolated. His close alliance with his feminine as depicted in the Six of Cups, also shows a man walking away from them. The masculine is now outside the co-dependent relationships he used to previously rely on (Six of Pentacles) and has no choice but to find his path, to leave the cups behind in search of filling them in his own way (Eight of Cups).

Notice too that the masculine is walking away under the guidance of the moon energy in Eight of Cups. This again reflects his reunification with his feminine aspect, the aspect of intuitive power, esoteric soul connections, an attempt to balance his energies and reformulate his life path based on that balance. While he is not yet with his feminine counterpart in the physical realm (she is a moon), she is a strong presence guiding him by means of his heart even through the dark of night when he is alone.

It is interesting to note that the 9 of Cups (not in this reading) is where the masculine achieves his own cups. Once he achieves that, he will able to access true happiness (10 of Cups) on his own terms, and not on the terms of his old morphic field/relationships/society. In 10 of Cups, not only does he achieve that happiness through his own powers of manifestation, but he is also united to his feminine with whom he is able to manifest children and a legacy.

Twin Flame Divine Feminine Collective: Moon Goddess Pities the Fool

Goddess energy, moon goddess energy, the divine feminine: all of these labels are common terms within the twin flame collective. It is truly inspiring to see women returning to their sense of power and beauty. I myself have spent many years working in a very masculine profession – software engineering – and I would often struggle in my attempt to be more like the “guys”. I was expected to be like them in order to compete for the same jobs, salary, bonuses, etc. It seemed to me to be the only way. And I watched other women around me grow hard, powerful, willful, unbending.
But for me – and I am sure many of them – it was an uncomfortable, albeit profitable, undertaking. But it never truly felt like “me”.

Fast forward to the present. I, like many other men and women, find myself on the twin flame journey. However, we all know how most of the awakened ones in this twin flame journey are the women. After all, the men seem to be the ones running away from this connection out of fear, attachment, or limited awareness of how profound and life changing this connection is.

As a result of this perception of the sleeping male beauty, many twin flame feminines are choosing to go it alone. They are choosing to stand in their power by discovering who they are, what they want out of life, and how they are going to be of service to humanity. They are collectively supporting each other in what appears to be a community of women, a nation of the matriarchy, a return to the power of the self proclaimed goddess, free and unbounded by masculine templates, restrictions, and requirements, all the things that made me and other women so uncomfortable in both work and social situations.

But what if this was all an illusion? What if the female is still bounded by the illusions of the reality she believes she has awakened to? What if the masculine isn’t actually less asleep than she is. What if she is the one who is still the sleeping beauty and that she just hasn’t allowed the masculine to find her, not because he just doesn’t get it yet and is slow, but because the feminine is supposed to provide the groundwork for the masculine. Support, not blame and criticism is what is required here. But so many women in the collective have been giving up and have surrendered, saying that they will take this journey without their divine masculines. Many have been doing this for many, many years. And many have been calling this surrender.

What if it isn’t surrender that many are doing. Based on this reading, it appears as if instead of surrendering, many women have been using their own power to deny the masculine theirs.

Spirit is revealing to me that this is in fact the case. There are many feminines in the collective who are taking their own self empowerment too far; so far that the masculine doesn’t even have a chance.

Let us see what Spirit might be trying to tell us.

The layout is simple of this spread is simple. I have drawn two rows of seven cards. The First row uses the Rider-Waite deck and indicates the main message of this spread. The second Row uses the Energy Oracle Deck by Sandra Anne Taylor and simply confirms, strengthens or clarifies the first row.

The topic of this message is Moon Goddess Energy. We have the The Moon card in the first row and the Goddess of the Moon card in the second. We couldn’t be more clear on what Spirit is trying to tell us.

The Reading

The first card I drew is The Moon. It also shows up as the Goddess of the Moon card in the second row. Before I proceed, let us just get a little background on the meaning of The Moon card.

The Moon card in the Rider-Waite deck is placed after the The Star and before The Sun. The Star indicates renewal, hope, new beginnings. The Star displays a naked feminine being guided by the great Star, a masculine principle of the night sky. She is lead by him. He gives her light so that she might carefully poor the water into the earth, to create rivers, lakes, oceans, seas perhaps. Now in The Moon card that woman has become a goddess of illumination, imagination, duality, dreams, and possibilities. She is the goddess of intuition. She inspires power into the realm of the dream and inspiration. She has the power to conceive of what even might seem impossible. However, she cannot manifest without the Sun. Her light is his light reflected. The Sun is the masculine principle in his full glory. A child is in the Sun card while the feminine moon is now hidden from view. Both the masculine and the feminine have worked together to create this child of joy, wonder, and happiness. The emphasis is on together.

Now in our spread, The Sun card is absent. All we see is the moon. And we even see two of them, one in the first row and the second in the next row! Instead of the Sun card, we see the Fool reversed (which incidentally includes the sun). The masculine is being exposed to the power of the dream, illusion, new possibilities, and intuitive creativity: all energies that are required before manifestation. But the Fool reversed indicates that the masculine, instead of being encouraged to discover this strange new world, to risk it all to be in it and to create from within it, he is literally made to be the Fool, who doesn’t know what he is doing, where to begin. He is in overwhelm and will very likely give up. The feminine in her extreme power becomes an uncontrollable volatile power. She is beautiful and terrible at the same time and he is consequently both attracted and repelled. He feels he is being set up for failure, and she is becoming exasperated with him. And the more exasperated she becomes, the more volatile and beautiful and terrible she appears: she is always increasing her power as the masculine begins to recede and step away. Thus, we have the Action card reversed. There is no action, no manifestation, no progress in the union between the two on earth. Separation begins. The horses run away in fear.

The reversed Nine of Wands continues this story, as the masculine, no matter what he does, no matter how much energy he manages to muster and attempt to cultivate in the soil, he will never be able to giver her what and how she wants it. She is moving too rapidly and becoming powerful too quickly. He cannot keep up. It is like trying to chase and tame a tornado. Her own transformation in this twin flame journey is happening at such an accelerated pace, that he will not be able to keep up with her enough to feel like he can get anything out of it. And so we have the Cornucopia card. Her power, her gifts, the depth of her light and love is clearly abundant to him. But he is overwhelmed. His only choice is to abandon his post.

And so we then have the reversed Two of Cups. Now the upright Two of Cups points to a relationship that is on equal footing, both are offering their cups of equal size. Both are honoring each other. They are in love. But since this is reversed, there is division between the two. The division is the infamous “separation” of the twin flame dynamic as mentioned above. This separation is usually blamed upon the runner of the two and usually the masculine is perceived as the one who is doing the running. But Spirit is telling us that the cause of separation is within the powers of both. But note the Man Holding a Heart card. This card indicates that the masculine loves his feminine. The separation is not due to lack of love, but simply a lack of balance in this space and in this time. The only way for separation to not happen is if the energies of both are balanced: the feminine providing and empowering the creative and potential energy of the union, and the masculine providing the work and manifestation of that union. The masculine must be given space and time to complete his work. He needs this. She needs to let him do that. The feminine’s close relationship to intuition and dreams allows her to see so many possibilities and avenues and options. – and very quickly. This is the reason why she can become too demanding, impatient, and frustrated with the masculine. The masculine is about grounding her energy, choosing something and manifesting it deeply and in a way that it will last forever. It is very slow going not because he is lazy or awakened, but because work takes lots of time and energy in this third dimensional reality. He is not interested in chasing dreams like rainbows, but choosing one and making it stick and remain on the earth. But if the feminine is imbalanced, she will overwhelm the masculine, not allowing him to even get started. She becomes a tidal wave upon his shore, ever removing the sandcastles he begins to build. She will not allow him the time and space to manifest the heaven on earth she wants.

It is important to note that the feminine is more aware of the name and nature of this twin flame connection, because she can see it in its potential, in its dream state, in its infancy. But she will not get anywhere without manifestation in union on earth today or tomorrow in this life. In that sense, she is just as misguided as the masculine is, but in a different way. She doesn’t fully understand her large role in causing the separation- yet.

Let us continue to look.

The next card is the Six of Wands. The Six of Wands shows a man upon a horse who is apparently celebrating his own victory. This is the false victory that the feminine celebrates when she feels her own power within herself and within the feminine community. It is false simply because of the context of this card. It is upright because she believes it is in fact true, and she tells herself that she is somehow more in tune and more awakened than her masculine counterpart. The Fifth Chakra reversed card in the second row indicates that this in fact the lie and that the feminine suffers an imbalance in her throat chakra. The victory can never manifest through her mere words. The lack of victory could never be made more clear than the next card. Until the feminine removes herself from the he vs she, us vs them polarity, the separation will continue.

The Emperor reversed is a powerful statement about the position of the masculine energy inside the world of the divine feminine. He has been completely turned upside down. This card indicates a breakdown of the masculine will and power – the power to manifest in the world, the power to make things happen, the power to procreate with the feminine. Again, the separation and wild nature of the feminine has made this impossible for him. Even if he wants to, even if he longs to be with her, he feels scared, overwhelmed and terrified of doing her wrong. He prefers to go it alone, and of course, in the process he diminishes his own power, as he strays further and further from his own power which must receive energy from his feminine in order to blossom. She in turn, as seen through the “All Tied Up” card reversed has been set free. In fact, both have been set free and both of them are dis-empowered as a result. The wide separation between the masculine and the feminine always leads to extreme behavior within both, that is destructive to both and to the world. For those who are interested, there is a tragic play written by Euripides called The Bacchae which deals with this very issue when the women become seduced by the wild Dionysus. They abandon their feminine roles in civilization for the wild. The consequences are catastrophic both for man and woman.

The reversed Three of Swords illuminates the end and purpose of all of this separation, namely, to heal the feminine’s broken heart – and the masculine’s as well. The separation is for healing the pain caused by each other upon each other. This is why waiting for your twin to return without doing the healing work will lead to prolong separations and prolonged agony. The Door to Romance is currently shut during this healing process because having these two powerful energies together when they are at such extremes in their powers will cause them to destroy each other, and not only each other but all those close to them and even the world.

I am grateful that Spirit has communicated this message to me, as it reveals the power and beauty of the twin flame separation. Many find it painful and difficult, but we only do so when we are not busy discovering who we are and why we are where we are at this time and place. You are already in union with your twin. There is no true separation except in the way it manifests on this earth in this three dimensional reality. This is just the work we have to do to make the union happen. Feminines need to become more aware of the nature of their own power, not in order to only improve self worth and become cheerleaders for feminine power. Twin flame is not just about self realization, but it is also about self-moderation and balancing of our own inner masculine and feminine powers. Self awareness, awareness of what we are doing, who we are as feminines, who we are as masculines, is key to awakening. And the majority of us – if not all of us – are not completely awakened yet. We are still mostly asleep in our beauty. But we are learning, we are learning to balance and to grow and still maintain that balance. That is the tricky part. It is easy to indulge ourselves in our own power and quickly declare a victory. Let’s try to help each other avoid that and instead remove the need for victory over anything. We are just on a journey, a journey to acquire balance, love,poise and beauty, and most of all, union with our beloved on this blessed Earth.

Light and Love,

Illumination of Addiction: Collective Masculine

Divine Masculine: Energies for Jan 20-26 2019

Modern society approaches everything with excess. It teaches us to solve big problems with big solutions. But we don’t really have big problems. We make them big. That is why the big solutions don’t work.

It should always be remembered that we as humans experience or express the experience of a constant flow of energy. And just like we don’t “feel” most of our body in its operation, we also don’t “feel” those more subtle energies that flow within and without us. This energy manifests in various ways and can be perceived as manifesting – or not perceived at all. We can simultaneously flow with these energies or may try to inhibit them. But because there is a lack of awareness of these energies, we often find that we are unable to find balance, connection and symmetry within ourselves. We exaggerate our own understanding of who we are, our relationships, and the world we live in. We downplay the things that are most important.

To make matters worse, modern society teaches us to look away from our imbalances, our chaos, and our neglect and instead encourages us to puff ourselves up and appear to be strong and powerful. The end result are hidden feelings of helplessness and unfulfillment and even worse – shame.

We live in Deceit. Note the Deceit card in the second row.

Today I am taking a look at the masculine energies in the collective. I am using three decks: the standard Rider-Waite deck, Energy Oracle deck by Sandra Anne Taylor, and the Archangel Power cards by Radleigh Valentine. The first row is a general overview of current masculine energies and is the theme of the reading. The second row is a more detailed view of the impact of those energies. The third are messages from spirit about the situation as it is unfolding.

This reading is of the masculine but the masculine energies are within all of us and so must be balanced accordingly. So if you are a woman reading this, the reading still applies to you.

Also, because this reading is a collective masculine reading, it does not differentiate the degrees of differences as expressed through individual people. For example, in picking up addictive behavior in the cards, this behavior might be quite mild and apparently innocuous in some masculines (too much gym time), but severe in another (alcoholism). The degree and power of these energies varies within the individuals; but in the collective it is a general condition. It is important therefore always apply what feels right in your current situation.

First Row (Rider-Waite)
I will begin at the beginning, not the first card, but the core of the reading. The core of this reading, the message that it wants to send is that there is a lack of balance in the life of the masculine. We have a reversed King of Cups which indicates an emotional state that is chaotic. There have of course been methods devised to contain the emotional chaos, but they are simply containers. They are not actually improving emotional state. Mastery is lacking. Where mastery is lacking, there is brute force. The masculine has been cleaning his room by throwing all the junk in the closet. He cleans his clothes by kicking them under the bed. He deals with emotions by distractions, work, and other forms of self soothing. It is a method of deceit and concealment.

Deceit is an energy that can easily spread to all areas of the body and soul. In this reading I am definitely seeing it as some kind of pervasive dis-ease.

As in all collective readings, the degree of this deceit depends on the individual.

The appearance of the reversed King of Cups can indicate all forms of emotional breakdown and the artificial means of making it appear to go away. These containment systems may give temporary reprieve from the emotional difficulties, but they never work in the long run. Addictive and excessive behavior: drugs, alcohol, sex, gaming, overeating, overexercising, overworking are some of the many toxic ways emotions are cloaked and kept out of the way.

This emotional containment is a collective issue; for within modern society there is a great amount of encouragement towards excessive behaviors and attitudes. The masculine energy has been trained to keep “strong” and hide deep confronting emotions. As a result, the masculine is very caught up in this excessive behavior and is very resistant towards removing it. He is an emotional volcano that has been laying dormant for many many years. Much of his current energy is devoted to containing it. Society helps him. His methods are quite unhealthy.

The reversed Star has a very striking presence in this spread. It indicates a certain hopelessness, a chaos that sees no end. It also indicates a lack of balance and illness. Note the upside down Healer of the Ages in the second row. There is a lack of health around the masculine energy. His untended emotional state and his addiction to society’s approved excesses is taking a toll on his health in a very big way. It is also leading to cynicism, doubt, and self deprecation.

But all is not lost. It never is. This state of things, once brought into awareness, will not last much longer. The presence of Temperance in the first row and the archangel Gabriel in the second indicates a powerful divine force that is also present and currently awakening the dormant masculine power.

The reversed 4 of Swords indicates a much needed rest and respite for the masculine. Rest here doesn’t mean escape, but it is clear that the knight laying on the table looks like a sarcophagus. The masculine is actually dormant in his energies like the volcano but he is illuminated as gold as he sleeps with one of the swords beneath him. There is opportunity ahead even though it has not awakened. The golden illumined quality of the card beckons the Temperance card which depicts the Archangel Michael intervening and helping the masculine to become aware of the need to balance his emotional cups, to consider the flow of life in all its grand beauty and to be open to following where that road leads. The kingdom of the masculine sits far into the distance. The masculine has not claimed or earned that crown yet. He is just receiving that angelic energy to let go of trying to control his emotions, and instead learn how to flow with and guide them.

Temperance is a major arcana card. It is not something that can be completed, done and dusted. It is something we strive for. As we add new elements and energies to our lives, we need to rework our balance. It is something that requires constant vigilance, just as walking requires vigilance. The masculine energy must learn to balance and keep the balance, to flow with the emotions and navigate them, rather than to hide them and suppress them. When discovering new terrain he must pay close attention so that he does not fall. And even when he does fall, he must be able to get up and try to achieve that balance once again. Living life is flowing and when the sailboat breaks, he must begin to build again, or improve on what remains. There is no other option if he wishes to move forward.

Finally, to end this row on a more positive note, the two of wands is the masculine awake. He is no longer sleeping. There is hope after all, but it must be appreciated on a smaller scale. Our society teaches the masculine that he needs to be big and do big things in the world if he is going to be worth anything. This is simply another deceit that leads the masculine astray. We must not set our goals too far and wide. One step of a time is best, in the appropriate time and place. Again, there must be balance in how we approach the energy that inspires us towards our goals. The two of wands is where the masculine needs to be. He is just a man holding a model of the world. But the world he sees in his hand is nothing like the world that he is gazing out towards. He recognizes this and is fine with it. The magnificent calm waters. The proud mountains. The clear sky. The sun is not yet present for him, but he can see clearly and calmly where he might like to go. He leans on one of the wands that is unattached to the wall. He is preparing. He is not ready to let go – yet. But he can take that option when he figures out how to travel the emotional seas without being pulled under. He wants to take on the real world. Not the deceitful one. That is why the Temperance card is required. In order to achieve big things, we must first pay attention to the small ones. He must receive and be in that communication.

Second Row (Energy Oracle)
The second row is precise and to the point.

As always, hope arrives in the form of Archangel Gabriel in the second row. The communication is key here. The masculine is currently receiving this communication that his old ways are not working and that he must take care of himself. It is quite urgent, this message. Consider the upside down “Healer of the Ages” and “Man Holding a Coin” and “Financial Constraints”. The reversed man with a coin indicates issues with not only health but money as well. There is a lack of physical attention to health in the collective: not enough doctor visits, not enough or excessive exercise. Obsessions with food and weight. It can be any of these things. The reversed king of cups way of being has dire consequences on the physical plane. Our bodies suffer when our emotional energies are not flowing but are being hidden and concealed, stashed away and suppressed. Control is never a good option. It is a very violent option.

The presence of financial constraints in the collective is making health very difficult in our society, and the masculine energies are suffering this. Nearly every one of my masculine spreads during the past month have included this card. There is a lot of general worry about money and it causes more emotional issues and difficulties as I described above. There is clearly an avoidance of dealing with these matters head on, and so there is a tendency to want to bury these matters in partying, drink, gaming, drugs, or other sorts of entertainment.

Third Row (Archangel Power)
The third row gives us the light that we need to be strong in what we must face about ourselves. The Sun is the first card I drew. It is the masculine energy. It is the sun that is not shown in the two of Wands card. The Sun is always present. You just have to feel it. You need to let it in. It is so easy to go about our days, our months, and our years and not even remember that it is there giving the world life, sustenance, growth. The powerful masculine energy is already there for us. It is within us all and in all the earth. It is this sun energy that will allow the masculine to gain mastery over his emotional oceans and tides. And when he does he will be able to channel his emotional power into art, relationships, partnerships. He will be able, through harnessing his will and taming his emotions, manifest his deepest desires. The sun is the power of masculine love and authority. His will can manifest the light on earth.

But first, we have nine of Michael. Before the masculine can manifest his desires, he must use the strength of the sun to cut through old patterns of guilt, regret and worry. These particular emotions are the very things that are keeping him from the sun. They are dark shadows and shades of the past, perhaps past lives, old attachments and bindings.

What most don’t tell you about illumination is that the first things that get illuminated are all the things we didn’t want anyone – including ourselves – to see. It is a challenging and difficult journey, but the rewards are far
greater than the pain and regret of never taking it.