Heavenly Arousal

I sang of awakenings and foreign moons with no reason
just rhyming I sang to you not knowing these mysteries
that bind me to you, a silver cord that holds you to me
swimming in my dark sea enraptured by your sunny currents
for they would smile as the sun smiles orange yellow white
yet it is strange that this our bondage would keep us free
wild longing and open to a love that once belonged to dreams
my love, I know you don’t need to read these small words
to feel my long whispering willows lightly touch your hand
and I know you don’t need to hear a single sound from me
to feel the ecstasy of this most heavenly divine arousal.

Karmic Curse

there is a rooted mechanism in our souls,
a coil hidden, its spring hidden unnoticed,
as it ever propels us into quests for love,
the ones that always end in regret or shame
until finally, weary, we surrender to the one
comforts that replace eternal truth’s passion
and in your imagination’s paper you marry him
and bury that iron stake half into the ground
that the other cruel half absorb the lightening
the power of your soul that you have forsaken
but saved for trying love games in the next life
until this karmic curse revealed will be spoken
wizardry dissolved as dark clouds to be broken

Karmic Curse

Love grants in a moment what toil can hardly achieve in an age.

Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

there is a rooted mechanism in our souls,
a coil hidden, its spring hidden unnoticed,
as it ever propels us into quests for love,
the ones that always end in regret or shame
until finally, weary, we surrender to the one
comforts that replace eternal truth’s passion
and in your imagination’s paper you marry him
and bury that iron stake half into the ground
that the other cruel half absorb the lightening
the power of your soul that you have forsaken
but saved for trying love games in the next life
until this karmic curse revealed will be spoken
wizardry dissolved as dark clouds to be broken

Meditation

Arjuna, the forces of nature are harmony, restless activity, and inactivity (sattvarajas, and tamas). They arise from the creative energy (prakriti) which binds the indestructible one fast to the physical body.


Bhagavad Gita

…You mock my blindness, do you? But I say that you, with both your eyes, are blind


Sophocles, 400-401


1. As above, so below. As inside, so outside.

2. The stars reflect the inner world. They were created to remind us of who we are and where we are from. Just as we possess a material and etheric body, so do the stars.

3. Elohim (”the mighty ones”) created mankind in the image of themselves.

4. All the representations of love in culture and society are images and reflections. They are all idolatry. What we call the real world is really a beautiful imitation. But we become absorbed in it.

5. Absorption in the world leads to pain and misery.

6. Yoga Sutras 2.3 There are five kinds of illusions (kleshas): 1) forgetting, or ignorance about the true nature of things (avidya), 2) I-ness, individuality, or egoism (asmita), 3) attachment or addiction to mental impressions or objects (raga), 4) aversion to thought patterns or objects (dvesha), and 5) love of these as being life itself, as well as fear of their loss as being death.
(avidya asmita raga dvesha abhinivesha pancha klesha)

7. There is no truth in this material realm. The two eyes will not lead you to love.

8. Meditation is not designed for relaxation. The goal of meditation is not to rid yourself of your ego or stress.

9. In order to meditate, you must learn to master ego and stress, thoughts and emotions. Then you can meditate.

10. Most of us live life in a continual state of preparation. We are always planning to better ourselves, and we usually go in the wrong direction, thinking it is the correct path. Ten years later, out of weariness, we remember our younger aspirations, and we quickly distract ourselves away from our own illusions with convincing excuses and explanations.

11. True passionate love is there for your to express, but we bury it in weakness and longing. That is only natural however when you starve something to death.

12. Our mind is not evil. Our ego is not evil. There are no people or things that do not serve you. Everything is a lesson. You can choose to take it or deny it. It is all there for you. Every minute of every day, your life is presented to your vision for consideration of the lesson.

13. When people first begin to meditate, they quickly give up because nothing is happening and the mind takes over wandering every which way. It is difficult for the novice to control the mind, and it causes much suffering because our minds are always a bad neighborhoods when left to their own devices. But if one wants to progress in life, one needs to start cleaning up somewhere. Don’t be afraid of the dirt, just notice it and remove it. If it comes back, remove it again. Eventually, it will get the message.

14. The practice of removing thoughts is like cleaning a dirty window so you can see through it. Yes, in the beginning the thoughts will keep coming back or new thoughts will take their place. Eventually, however, you will be showing who is boss.

15. Once you have started clearing the thoughts, you will still have some grime that remains. It will distort your vision, but you will still make out the shapes and the faces of a universe that is nothing other than magical.

16. You do not find your power in the external. Your power is always within. All of us experience it, filtered through the material realm. And yes, we abuse it, or cast it aside, or try to possess it out of greed and lust. But as we know, all things in this material world come and go, despite the fact that we worship it as a living god. The frequency of these created things cannot withstand the test of time. However, they are often sourced in those higher eternal frequencies, and it is possible to locate yourself there outside the material dimension.

17. Jesus was a healer and could walk on water because he was not of this material world, not because he was a fiction.

18. The world we perceive through the fives senses is a tiny grain of sand compared to the entire universe you have access to.

19. Once you peer through the window of your intuitive eye, you will realize that the window is a door.

20. John Lennon dreamed of us living as one. This is because he knew that we are already one.

21. Separation is an illusion that causes us great pain and misery. We can feel at war with the world, each other, and ourselves. This is due to the nature of the world in regards to its apparent consistency and adherence to Newtonian Laws of physics. Everything remains the same and yet it changes. We like things to remain the same.

22. The quantum field is the only true constancy. But it is a constant field of possibilities that be conjured up through creative powers.

23. All creative endeavor accesses the quantum field of possibility. This is our natural and subconscious connection to “diety”. Yet most art, especially the unoriginal type of art, is heavily reliant upon material mind and memory – it uses the familiarity of the physical world as a means of expression. In other words, it offers no new perspective. Phenomenon such as Mozart, the Beatles, Nietzsche, are examples of creative individuals who truly reinvented the flow of their respective material realms.

24. Invention is our connection to source. Memory is our connection to humanity.

25. What is worth seeing forever is not seen through the eyes. The blind have a distinct advantage over the rest of the population. Most people however wrongly think of them as disabled.

26. The material powers of this world will always work against the one who wants to tap into true inventiveness and creativity. The material world is designed to attract heroes who wish to overcome it. In Christianity, this is called the devil. Jesus spent a lot of time with the devil.

27. Most people stay away from things they consider demonic, like yoga or tarot reading. This avoidance is actually a work of the very “devil” they say they fear. It is a test that will not pass if t hey don’t overcome their own devil.

28. You are never alone. There are spirit guides with you. If you enter a deep state of meditation, you will see them. Some appear in the form of humans or animals or simply light beings. Once you witness them, you will never suffer again by anything any human being can do to you.

29. Many wonder: well, if spirit guides are with me, why don’t they help me? First of all, there is free will. You must ask and you must ask in earnest from a place of unconditional love. Note also that the “me” you are talking about it is the material “me”, the “mini me”, the one that is projected into the material world. That “me” you want help for might require some hard medicine. You have to be willing to take the medicine.

20. A lifetime in the world is a phenomenal blip that emerges from the quantum field. Most of us don’t last very long.

21. Who you are is nothing that you can imagine, and even if you could imagine it, it would be wrong and unconvincing.

22. The only way to experience the self is through meditation. There is no other way. The third eye must be opened.

23. Most people’s third is (pineal gland) has been calcified due to fluoride and other environmental/health factors. It is possible to decalcify it through died and Reiki.

24. Your body must be prepared to handle the ascension of self. If you wish to take that path, practice grounding yourself first. Otherwise, you will fly too far afield where There Be Dragons. Every spiritual endeavor must be balanced with a foot or two upon the earth.

25. Children cling to their blanket. You cling to everything that persists around you.

26. We are children and will remain children until we choose not to be.

27. There is a divine will that works through you, and if you do not follow it, you will not be fulfilled when you die. It is for the reason, you will be reincarnated again until you learn to follow it.

28. There are people who deny the divine exists. You can see their souls swimming against the current as they complain about the difficulty of life and how if a God or spiritual entity were present, they wouldn’t suffer so much.

29. Some people read every challenge as if it were an eternal stop sign guarded by an angel of the fiery sword.

30. We are all guided at different times and at different levels and speeds. The only requirement is to be aware of your journey. Yet so many insist on writing books and twitter posts about how everyone else should be approaching life as they do.

31. You are your only teacher. The other teachers outside of you should only be guides to lead you back to yourself.

32. My greatest love and lover never touched me. He pointed me in the direction of my soul and I have traveled there and beyond. There is no greater gift in the universe, this love, this life, this magical beauty that is the truth of our existence.

He is the sun to my moon; the awareness to my subconscious; the universe to my tiny breath.

Samadhi, Bliss, and You

Yoga Sutra 3.3: tad eva artha matra nirbhasam svarupa shunyam iva samadhih


When the field of observation and the observing intelligence merge as if their own form is abolished and the total intelligence shines as the sole substance or reality, there is pure choiceless awareness without the divided identity of the observer and the observed – that is illumination.


Translation and interpretation by Swami Venkatesananda
  1. The Cup Overfloweth. We have an immense capacity for helping others, for we are as a cup that overflows or as a volcano that erupts from the earth. We give to each other with very little effort and extraordinary energy. Thinking, planning, and strategizing are accessories that are useful, but can quickly become impediments to the good effects you wish to distribute.
  2. Utilitarianism. Our utilitarian mindset is simple and leads to much unhappiness. We watch the beauty of the fish as they swim effortlessly in the pond, and we wonder how such a vision could be sold to the highest bidder.
  3. Turgid Waters. It is not possible to give powerfully to anyone or anything when your soul is burdened and muddied in the waste that is guilt, shame, and blame. In those cases, water is still there, but it is dark and turgid water in which only dark and turgid souls love to swim.
  4. Fans. Those who approve of and engage in self-shaming, guilt, and torture of various kinds easily become the friends and fans of those who sing their songs.
  5. Spark. There is a tiny light of power that shines in the dark for those who wish to free themselves from the shackles of self-doubt and fear. An art that flames that tiny apparently insignificant fire is born of the divine will. Carpe Diem. Seize the day.
  6. Ego Thought Love. Loving oneself and others is false love when it refers to loving the ego and the thoughts we have about ourselves and the others.
  7. Unity. There is not a single thought that can express the nature of who you are. That is why you must look within. You are an endless universe of stars.
  8. Eye. Notice that the phrase “looking within” does not mean for us to use the eyes that only look without.
  9. Salvation in Approval. Most people want to be good and do good deeds in order to redeem themselves. Jesus taught that salvation only comes from the divine, but the people only hear a man’s words when they listen to Jesus talking about God. So they look for men and women to approve of them.
  10. Sparks of Eternal Fire. Every person who uses social media as a gauge for their own value receives a little spark of the fire of life with every “like” they receive. But as soon as that spark appears it begins to die. The addiction is to crumbs, not to sustenance or power. It is the lifestyle of those who do not know how to create with the eternal fire. But you can learn.
  11. Eternity. The most difficult part of meditation is learning how to allow yourself to meditate. Most meditation exercises offered to the public are not really meditation, but are a preparation for meditation. We cannot meditate truly until we become the observer of our own thoughts and world. In that sense, meditation is always an attempt, and as we practice the attempt, we become more observant of the endless possibly that we are.
  12. Dragon Courage. We are not our bodies. We are not this meat bag. We are not this flesh and bones. We all have awareness or thoughts around these statements. But we usually stop there and continue on clinging to our lives. It is the rare person who continues to see what he or she actually is. Such person is possessed of great courage beyond measure. There be dragons.
  13. Animal Spirits. Each person has one or more spirit animals. Most people don’t see them. They exist in another dimension. How do you see them? Learn to clear your thoughts. Do energy work to clear your third eye. Eat clean foods. Practice meditation or yoga or music, anything that connects you to the divine.
  14. You are Divine Art. You are already an expression of the divine. Your actions and your words and your creations tell of who you are. You don’t notice this at all. You think you are surviving.
  15. Unity Consciousness. The third eye gives each of us access to the consciousness of unity or Christ Consciousness. It is where you experience the all in the one and the one of the all. Your higher consciousness leads to a universe that becomes one with all others. There is no division there; no separation. There is only observation, bliss and love. Samadhi.
  16. The World. This world that you see with your bodily senses is a very small fragment of who you are. But the world itself is interested in its own preservation through the beings that it inhabits. It will even destroy the other aspects of life in order to maintain its emperor-like dominion. We like to blame politicians or the corporations, but we need to first look at ourselves. Freedom from filth dissolves filth, just as a bird who flies high above the ant no longer sees the ant.
  17. Pity for the Hero. There is truly nothing in this world that is too big a problem for us to solve. We like to make mountains out of molehills because we yearn to be heroes or damsels in distress. But this is all coming from fear and worldly desires. We wish to become heroic or victim in order to redeem ourselves from our own self-loathing. It never works. Most drink themselves to death, play too many games, or do too many drugs, etc.
  18. Withdrawal of the senses (pratyahara) is the first step towards liberation, happiness, and bliss. It is the first step towards extracting yourself from the bondage that your thoughts have you subject to. You are your own willing slave. The keys of the cell you are in are the keys to the kingdom and they are in one of your many pockets.
  19. Agreement/Disagreement. Everything I write is something I experience directly. You can agree or not agree with what I am saying, but know that you are still in a state of polarized thought: you have not experienced anything.
  20. From Bliss to Word. Thinking is a wonderful computer-like mechanism. It makes us feel like we are experiencing something, especially if the idea feels right and sound. And when people agree with us – oh boy – we are the founders of an exquisite diamond! But the truth is that thoughts are thoughts about some buried experience that has usually been lost somewhere in some soul who is blissed out and happy in his soul, unconcerned but completely aware that his experience has been reduced to a few printed words.
  21. Awareness is a choice you can make. Take some time out for yourself. You do not need to work so hard. Relax and really look at your thoughts. Listen to how they roar and argue with each other. Listen to how you punish yourself. Listen to how you abuse yourself. Hear how never stop to listen to the air and the birds around you. Practice this every day, even for a few minutes. Be with yourself. Enjoy your own interaction with yourself. That is how you begin the process of meditation. Meet yourself. Buy yourself tea. Chat.
  22. “Love is the Law. Love under Will.” – Aleister Crowley, The Book of the Law.
  23. The Matrix is real and you are Neo; but you are not the one. So be it. So begin.

Songs of a World Torn Asunder

i would imagine you in a child’s dream or fantasy,
scales of shimmering gold and the breath of fire
or of dark eternal eyes slippery alienese attired;
how many imaginations has society stripped away
from my eyes and how many lies have replaced them?

there is a cord the binds me to what you seem now
and to what you have been forever in mist hidden
yet reaching for you, you would quickly spin away
fear was the back of your head till that very last day
when anger fueled your step, rage giving black wings

what does it feel like to be in love with the whole,
and watch that world tear apart from lighted soul?
perhaps a child would cower and imagine to be other
in some tired corner waiting too for his redemption,
crying, eager to write songs of a world torn asunder.

Before Beginning and till the End of Time

they’ve been singing about Love for many eons
the color of its sky, its book of charming lullabies
but they never taught me about your subtle moon,
how you’d appear to me unexpected out of nowhere
inside my heart, beyond the edges of my smart mind
I cannot resist you without also resisting myself
in mirrors, in daydreams, in nighttime dreamings.
I feel you smile as if it were sun’s bright shining
I feel it when you are crying clouds’ silver sighing
falling quietly between shining stars’ awakenings
I feel you as I rise and as I put my head to sleep
like breath or the wind that sweet comforts the dying
whispering graces of a universe so magic and so alive
I love you before beginning and till the end of time

Final Dawning (Aurora)

let the light cascade around your body
otherwise you will not see its shadow
as weeds who wilt beneath the great sun;

open the windows, release all the doors
and you will breathe the breath of love
and you will be able to breathe no other;

I’ve seen in my mind your eyes shining
in my dreams of both joys and sorrows
and I have known you well there hiding

beyond rainbows I’ve already found you;
Do you remember that other life we lived?
for we are born yet again to repeat it

the hard long lessons we failed to take,
my love, look here where we now remain
suspended in time sweet death longing,
black night ready for our final dawning.

Flood of Your Light

if you want to know where to go, you’ll ask the people standing round you
and they will tell you their warnings, their mistakes, sing songs of woe
they’ll say you need to know before you begin your journey’s walking
that maps are easy when you want to know their directions, my love,
their directions; but you and I are not found inside these paper minds
for we fly with the birds who go where their heart knows to lead them
guiltless, shameless, swimming free in the flood of your beautiful light

Cups (Netzach)


It is a wholesome reminder of the fatal ease with which a Sacrament may be profaned and prostituted.


– Aleister Crowley, The Book of Thoth
Rider Waite, Seven of Cups
Rider Waite, Seven of Cups
Thoth Tarot, Seven of Cups, Debauch
Thoth Tarot, Seven of Cups, Debauch

when the rain falls they long to capture it all
buckets and cups they place quite strategically
not to drink but to preserve their passing desires
hoping to entomb the life that blooms and expires

for if they drink, the water will return to the earth
for if they drink not, the water will return to the air
What wave have you seen within their shallow wells?
In what cups has the moon conjured her wild swells?

so they fill themselves with their glory and their fame,
money, lusts, devil’s serpents, manors, bonding chains,
cups that fill without needing random cloud’s releasing
distant, dark, sadly detached from nature’s river streaming